Who Moved My Cheese?

"Life is no straight and easy corridor along which we travel free and unhampered, but a maze of passages, through which we must seek our way, lost and confused, now and again checked in a blind alley. But always, if we have faith, a door will open for us, not perhaps one that we ourselves would ever have thought of, but one that will ultimately prove good for us."

A.J Cronin

I know my mum was very disappointed when I told her that I will not be celebrating Christmas either in Kuching or Penang this year. I decided to have a quiet X'mas in KL - to rejuvenate, re-energise and "reshape" my body, mind and soul. Huhuhu ... sound so holistic. In actual fact I was having the time of my life, indulging in sinful luxury of sloth -"eat, sleep and shit" - just like Jimmy Hiew will described it. 4 days into the lazy mode ... now getting out of bed already felt like hard labour. So much of the idea of "reshaping"... makinlah I "out of shape". Oh I am so going to Hell!

All my half-read books. As of today, just finish the first 2.

Many people will think I might be out of my mind - celebrating X'mas all alone. Just imagine yourself celebrating Hari Raya - far away from home or sebatang kara. Anyway, one thing I am proud of being "Mie" is that I can choose to celebrate either Chinese New Year, Christmas or Gawai Dayak (Harvest Festival) so I'll make it up to my mum next year CNY. I have to admit though that I really miss my Gina and little Maegan. Especially when my mum relate to me the story when Gina mispronounced "Grandma is tired" to "Grandma expired" and how she tried to help my sister Florence putting Maegan to sleep, ended up being the one sleeping.


I have good reason for a "Silent Night" Christmas this year. I have come to a point in my life when I found "my cheese" is depleting and if I don't start playing "Scurry" and "Sniff" then I will ended like Hem when my cheese moved. I started noticing it when I found myself kept "procrastinating" applying for Masters. Then the dilemma of doing it locally or overseas. But yang paling-paling need my special attention - do I want to settle down? (I do, I do, I do, I do -Mamma Mia!)

Honestly 9 years ago, I made a 10 -year master-plan for my life ending 7 September 2010. Part of that plan was did my Masters and settle down with 2 babies (hehehe) before age 33. But then of course, sometimes many things never go as planned and I did have my lowest moments which affect that master plan. Unfortunately during those meltdowns, you just didn't have the energy to review the changes and execute alternative plans and so I ended up asking myself last birthday ... what next? But you knowlah ... typical "Mie" ... I will think about it next year (just like the line in Gone with The Wind)

I haven't drafted the next decade plan yet. But I am definitely not going to lead my life AUTOPILOT. Kena travel lah tahun depan ... kena test international market pulak (bak kata si Jethro and Emel).